Like many people, it is hard to ask for help. It is far easier to offer help. For me it’s far deeper and complicated than that.

Many years ago, I was a young man in love. As much as anyone could be, I relied on her for many things including comfort, reassurance and confidence. In return I offered her the same and financial stability and guidance. Ultimately that relationship ended very badly; I caught her cheating on me after a 9 year relationship. That hurt, ever since then I have believed everyone cannot be trusted, everyone is after something from me.

Because of that damnation, I have trouble asking for help because most people are unwilling to offer it. I despise weakness and the reliance on others, I associate other people’s help with that.