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Rolling Bridge!
Mar 31st
Nothing more to say that is just looks amazing! I cannot even fathom the level of engineering required to building something like this!
Have Microsoft missed the mark with Windows Mobile 6.5?
Mar 20th
When it comes to Windows Mobile it is a love hate relationship. I love it because it offers so much and promises wonderful things but then I hate it because what it delivers is ALWAYS not what they offer or anywhere near what they promised. I have used the very first version of the smartphone the SPV, then it’s black and sexier cousin the C500, then the PDA type M600 and finally my current phone the HTC Touch. Now, you maybe wondering why do I keep buying them, but in fairness all of them (except the HTC Touch) came with the company I worked for. But I digress.
Engadget.com has an interesting article listing ten reasons why WM 6.5 is not what it’s cracked up to be. CLICK HERE to read the post.
Joey Lawrance. Inspirational Photographer.
Mar 20th
I just happend to be Stumbling online again when one website directed me to a Photographer I had never heard of. Well, there are so many can you blame me? Anyway, just one look at his homepage image made me stop and think! The crispness, colourtone and lighting is amazing! Have a look at see for yourself! http://www.joeyl.com
To serve is to live.
Feb 3rd
Like many people, it is hard to ask for help. It is far easier to offer help. For me it’s far deeper and complicated than that.
Many years ago, I was a young man in love. As much as anyone could be, I relied on her for many things including comfort, reassurance and confidence. In return I offered her the same and financial stability and guidance. Ultimately that relationship ended very badly; I caught her cheating on me after a 9 year relationship. That hurt, ever since then I have believed everyone cannot be trusted, everyone is after something from me.
Because of that damnation, I have trouble asking for help because most people are unwilling to offer it. I despise weakness and the reliance on others, I associate other people’s help with that.
Deeper issues inside
Nov 18th
The rational mind says that there is no one else to blame but myself, but the emotional and impatient child within me wants to blame everyone and everything else.
Deep inside, I want to help everybody but then I over commit myself. I always get run over, and I’m always the last to benefit from the hard work I put in. I believe this could be the root of my complaicency and procrastination; why try when there is no self benefit or reward?
I am always examining how to better myself yet what I want will cause me much damage; there is much fear inside me when I thought there were none. Ultimately, I feel alone alot of the time. There is a need, I think, for me to be wanted, needed and essentially loved but life has not dealt me those cards. A combination of fear and ugliness (both inside and out) has resulted in this.
I am very good at pushing people away, but I’ll talk about that another time….
Jammy friend buggering off around the world
Apr 9th
Since coming back to the UK, I feel like caged animal. I’m not meant to be stuck here in nowhere-ville. That hardest part is letting go of my past, the material things I have gathered. I want to just chuck it all and f**k off around the world, never to settle down. I see some people with their lives and I pity them, then I look at myself and pity myself.
There is an explorer in me, but he’s a scared little kid who doesn’t like to get out of the comfort zone. The adult me, the more dominate me is struggling and wants to ditch the scared little kid. I will not be left here to rot (rather dramatic choice of word there), but it emphasizes how desperate I am to leave the comforts of this fortress I have built around me. I could ditch this life, but I don’t know how.
Money is an issue. I’m not sure how long I could survive without money. I’ve always had it around me. I wouldn’t know how to survive without it. That makes me weak.
I have an idea of selling up in UK, move to Hong Kong where my brother can look after my assets then piss off around the world returning occasionally to replenish. Yeah, I love it when a plans comes together.
Quote of the day
Mar 17th
Smallville, Season 7, ep11. Lois Lane talking to Clark Kent
“Can you imagine what it’s like to look into someone’s eyes and know their destiny is so much greater than yours than you will never compete? That you will always be left behind?” “That would be hard for anyone…” “No, I can’t be left behind one more time”
So many times I have thought what Lois is thinking. She’s talking about someone she loves so much but has to let go because she will always be second place in his life, will always have to be worrying about his future, and reflect that whatever she does no matter how hard she tries, no matter how many sacrifices she has to take…she will never catch up to him. He is someone greater than she will ever be.
Around my home
Mar 12th
I’m stuck indoors for the moment; I was keen to get some photos taken. Instead of just giving up, I practiced taking shots in various lighting conditions around my house. Here are just some of what I took.
